Oh that devil inside of me. Can you make yourself known? When the switch flips south and light exits the room you attack my thoughts without mercy. Your resolve and will is destructive. You drive your aspirations deep down into my soul. And there I am, the monster inside playing around within me like a wrecking ball. You exist in all of my doubt about life and tear me apart the more that I attempt to run from you.
But I am going to fight no longer, only to warmly embrace your presence. Does this bemuse you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so perfect and so tight due to my disability to see that it was the battle that created your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more that I moved. But like I announced before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I'll see clearly now that darkness can deliver light. There's no fear in this heart anymore with reference to you showing up. Why? Because... you are here...right here inside me. Not walled out from me anymore. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Truly present.
I really am completely mindful of what you actually are and who you turned me into. No, I'm not trying to fool anyone any longer by showing them a grin on my face. No, I should just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all those times you cut me down. Now, let's take a hike and work this thing out. I'd like to hear what you would like to say about all the years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you proud of your achievements? Maybe... I can even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the start of a long relationship. It's going to be difficult, but I'm going to start chatting with you for the first time. But now, my choices are primarily based on light. It's really time to begin living my life and make the best decisions I am able to. But I'm aware that I must check in with you...oh demon deep within. You can show me a path that is worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I have always been afraid to go. But to ignore you further would be out of idiocy. Stupidity. Fear.
So let's go for a walk. I would like to hear what you have to say.
But I am going to fight no longer, only to warmly embrace your presence. Does this bemuse you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so perfect and so tight due to my disability to see that it was the battle that created your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more that I moved. But like I announced before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I'll see clearly now that darkness can deliver light. There's no fear in this heart anymore with reference to you showing up. Why? Because... you are here...right here inside me. Not walled out from me anymore. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Truly present.
I really am completely mindful of what you actually are and who you turned me into. No, I'm not trying to fool anyone any longer by showing them a grin on my face. No, I should just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all those times you cut me down. Now, let's take a hike and work this thing out. I'd like to hear what you would like to say about all the years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you proud of your achievements? Maybe... I can even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the start of a long relationship. It's going to be difficult, but I'm going to start chatting with you for the first time. But now, my choices are primarily based on light. It's really time to begin living my life and make the best decisions I am able to. But I'm aware that I must check in with you...oh demon deep within. You can show me a path that is worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I have always been afraid to go. But to ignore you further would be out of idiocy. Stupidity. Fear.
So let's go for a walk. I would like to hear what you have to say.
About the Author:
Evan Sanders is the author of The Words Of Encouragement a website dedicated to spreading encouraging words to everyone who visits and giving them a reason to continue chasing after their dreams. If you are stuck in a rough place, perhaps dealing with that devil within right now, please read these quotes about depression. They will help. A lot.
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